Man, does time fly.
Seriously. Where does it go?
Only a few short years ago I was still in high school, and now I'm done college and planning to attend university.
But now, in just the last year so much has changed for me and my family.
My second sister graduated from college and is getting married in just barely over a week. My third sister is going into her second year of university and lives so far away from us. And my youngest sister graduated from high school and is now in college.
I just can't believe how quickly time goes by.
It's a little frightening. And a little disheartening.
Seeing how things have changed so much makes me think back to the way they were not so long ago. And way too often I wish I had done things differently.
I wish I had worked harder in school so I could accomplish the things my sisters did. I wish I had gone to college earlier and had finished the first time through. If I had done that I would be in my fourth year of university.
I'm actually kinda disappointed in myself.
I know that I could have done better in so many ways.
There are moments where I imagine the way things could be different if I had just done those things.
I would be nearly graduated from university. I would start my career as an architect. And I would maybe someday meet someone special.
Of course things rarely work out the way we imagine they should.
Instead of all that stuff I wished for I got something I think is much, much better.
My Mum and Dad love me, they support me, they encourage me and they constantly teach me.
My sisters have always been there for me, and will always stand up for me (no matter how often we disagree or fight).
And I met someone special. He loves me, supports me, encourages me and best of all, he makes me happy.
Now maybe I don't have my full out university degree just yet. But it'll happen. Maybe a little later than I would have hoped, but it'll happen.
For now, I'm thankful that I have a steady job that I enjoy (despite the fact that it involves masonry :p), a family that loves me, and a boyfriend that will support me no matter what.
I know I'm not the only one who plays the 'what-if' game, and I won't be the last one either. There's nothing wrong with it. But just remember that whatever you've got now is, well, just the way it's meant to be. I'm not going to get all "religious" on you so don't worry.
But hey, "don't knock it 'til you try it"!
Or something.
Anywho.. All I'm saying is that time goes by real fast.
So try not to waste it. Enjoy these moments.
Make some memories with the people you love.
Try something new.
And now, I'm going to go maybe look at paint colors.
Good night!
